Moments of torment seems to melt,
as I realize what was always there,
the truth.
I see how black I truly was,
I see the chaos I caused and never looked at,
I see the people I beat by my own hand and laughed.
I look to the skies,
so pure, so open, so high in its majesty.
I'm done being black,
done holding a wall before everything I feel,
I see the world anew,
I see people I loved but never trusted till now.
The realization makes my heart grow heavy,
and I shed a tear of regret,
so much time lost full of hate, full of pain,
so much time wasted.
But no more.
This tear is the last of its kind,
there will be no more doubts, no more hell,
I see the light of tomorrow and it shines brighter than ever!
Joy feels a once withered piece of flesh I called a heart,
I feel the pulse I once lost so long ago,
and everything seems new,
a life I'm willing to call my own.
I see my failure, my pain, my past.....
And I let it drift away with my memory.
I let it sink with the pain that cut my soul to shreds,
I feel the wind rush around me,
my feet lift from the ground and time ceases to exist...
The blackness around me seems to fade away,
My heart swells with relief...
Finally, I see the light.