Open heart so filled with fear,
will you follow me into the light?
Gentle winds twist and turn,
throwing me into a chaotic dance of madness,
only to appreciate the calm of the storm.
Sadness drains away as determination breaks through.
I feel as alive and detached as ever,
a flower bursting into bloom before it wilts away.
I feel time running away from me,
and yet I've realized that it has only begun.
Familiarity drains away as friends are replaced with ghosts,
as shadows of memories become my last companions.
The candle of faith flickers with every blood stained step,
and I regret.......

Hating every bitter moment of doing so,
but none the less, I regret
That gentle face that turned to ash within my hand,
those words of love that turned to distant whispers of hope,
the warmth of arms woven around me that turned to a cage of lies.
I see so clearly,
yet regret pealing away the blindfold.
I feel so strongly,
yet hate myself for it all the more.
For now I see why I must walk away,
now I know the truth that I stared into yet blindly ignored,
now I sense the purpose I wish I could forget.
I regret........

Because I've stepped into the light,
only to find the scares I made deep within myself,
only to find the words I told myself were true and were'nt,
only to see that my friends were an addiction that nearly destroyed me,
only to see that I never needed the darkness I thought to be myself.
I regret.......
Because I chose to be independent,
When all I want more than anything in the world
is to be saved from myself.